Chapter 1
I was hypnotized by the sound of the summer rain dropping on the parking lot's ground. My chuck taylors were completely wet from stepping on puddles.
As I got near the school I could hear the sound of hundreds of teenagers put together in one single place. It wasn't pleasant.
The noise was getting higher so I couldn't concentrate on the sound of the rain, it was really annoying so I only noticed someone had approached me when she grabbed my arm and turned me around.
"Hey Winter, how are you?"
Thalia said, her dark curly hair flitting behind her, her wild green eyes staring at me.
"It's the first day of school, how do you think I am?"
"You must be just great returning to the place you have to go every morning, five days a week, and do the same senseless things over and over." She said ironically while she lit a cigaret.
"Yeah, It's really fantastic" I *AFASTEI* some water from my blue backpack. "But seriously?Smoking at 9 am?"
"Sorry 'mom'" She rolled her eyes mocking me.
We walked the rest of the street together until the noise was almost
unbearable and we entered school.
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As soon as we walked in some stupid popular girls gossiped about us, probably something about our clothes that didn't match their fashion magazines.
It has been like this since I remember. They hate us, we hate them, I think we made some kind of silent pact the day we met to hate each other forever, no reason, just do it.
When we got to the main corridor a thin, shaky voice got out the speaker.
"Welcome to a new year in {insert city's name} Public High school." A really original name by the way. "This is your director, Mrs. Hedwich, I hope you study and pay attention to classes as you did last semester." I actually thought she was joking by then. "You can check your classes and your respective lockers at the secretariat as soon as I end my message. "But of course it was too late for that, everybody was already heading to the secretariat. "There are some students here and I just wanted to say that's not polite...I didn't stop speaking why are you coming?...I'm tired, just have a nice year."
After everybody came back, I went to get my information, I just couldn't believe I was doing it one more time after so many years.
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My first class was geography with Mrs. Collins. She's a bitch.
Thalia had science for first class so I went by myself.
Mrs.Collins class room is full of maps and gigantic texts all over the walls, you can barely see the white colour of it.
When I entered the class I stopped by the door for a moment and stared at each one of the junior year students sitting in the wooden chairs, trying to find someone friendly.
Nicholas waved at me from one of the back sits, he had spent his summer vacation in USA so I was really glad to see him again.
Nic has really deep, beautiful blue eyes, the kind you can stare all day long and not get tired of it. His hair is light brow and messy, and he's pale like paper. If you don't know him very well you might think he's perfect. It appears by the confident way he walks and by the way he looks people in the eye, that he has no fears, that everything he does is perfectly calculated, but I've known Nicholas for seven years now and I'm one of the only persons who can see him through the confident mask he puts on.
"Hi" I hugged him "I've missed you" He smelled like pine.
"I've missed you too Snow." Winter = Snow so unfortunately he calls me that way. I hate my name.
I sat at the chair next to him and took my notebook out of my bag.
"How was US?"
"Awesome, lots of hot girls, the food was nice too"
"Hum, cool" I felt a twinge in my stomach. "So, this class sucks" I said trying to find a pen.
"This school sucks" He said lending me one of his pens. "How was your vacation?"
"Basically going to therapist every day, yay."
"Why? Did you finally explode in anger and killed somebody?" He said half smiling.
"No, my mom was paranoid so she took me there, the therapist asked me to draw a house and then diagnosed me as depressed, simple like that."
He laughed. I could see the window behind his head, the rain had stopped and a beautiful rainbow had replaced it.
"What kind of house did you draw? It must have been a pretty scary one."
"I drew a happy house, I don't know what happened."
His smile then fade away, he suddenly looked worried.
"Well, are you okay now?"
"Yeah, he said I don't have to go there anymore so..."
"Great." He smiled. I love his smile.
Mrs. Collins, who was sitting in her desk till then, suddenly got up. She had dark brown lifeless hair, nervous eyes that made her seem crazy, antiquate clothes, and she smelled like old pizza.
"Hello students, for those who don't know, I'm Mrs. Collins. I'm here to teach you geography and other crap. Open on page 1 of your books and do it now lazy kids." She said in a dragged voice.
Like I said, she was a bitch. I can't blame her though, if I was 59 and living alone with about 30 cats, I would be a bitch too.
"I'm so excited to start a new year being called a 'lazy kid'." Nic whispered to me.
"Me too, super excited."
"Hey, sorry, I'm late." Thomas entered the class with his brown perfect eyes and his blonde shiny hair looking like he just came out of an Abercrombie catalog. Typical prince charming, all the girls are in love with him, except me, even Thalia had a crush on him, and Thalia is the kind of girl you don't see having a crush very often.
"Just sit down Mr. Walker." Mrs.Collins said rolling her eyes. I found it strange that she only called students by their last names, she knows us for years.
He sat in the chair behind me, the only one left.
"Hey man" He shook Nic's hand, completely ignoring me, sometimes Nic is so cool to me I forget he's popular and I'm just a nerd. I guess that's what people call me since I wear big glasses and have straight A's.
But Nic doesn't care about being popular like Thomas does, he's just very sociable, he's good with people.
The class passed slowly, Mrs. Collins barely said anything after that, she just sat there using her laptop.
I did the exercises and then started doodling in my notebook.
"Hi Mrs.Evans" Mrs. Collins scared me, I didn't know she was behind me.
"Hum, hey"
"How was your summer?"
I was confused, why was she pretending to be interested in my summer?
"Fine" I showed her a creepy smile.
"That's great sweetie, I just wanted to let you know that you're really brave and I'm proud of you."
Then I understood it, everybody has been talking like that to me since my sister Ariana disappeared last year, it sucks because I feel like I'm an abandoned puppy.
It's hard enough that I lost my sister but I also have to take people treating me like that.
The belt rang and everyone got up. My next class was english, witch is my favourite and in the other side of the school.
"I have some walking to do Nic, see you at lunch?"
"Absolutely." He smiled crinkling the corner of his eyes. Have I mentioned he has beautiful eyes?
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I was calmly walking down the corridor when something blonde hit me.
"Watch your way, loser" Alexis screamed, her cold blue eyes looked like they were scanning me.
"Whatever" I almost said 'bitch' but I bit my tong not to, I didn't want to get into trouble.
"What did you say?"
Too late.
"Nothing, just let me get to my class."
"What if I don't want to?"
"Then I'll push you, bitch." Thalia emerged next to me out of nothing.
"Oh, did you call your drug addicted friend to help you Summer?"
"It's Winter." I said trying to grab Thalia's arm and push her away from there.
"Whatever." She said mocking me.
I finally got Thalia, who was showing Alexia her middle finger, out of there.
"She's such a bitch, you should do something about it Win." Thalia said.
"It's not worth it."
"C'mon did you see the look in her face? She thinks she owns everybody."
"I know, I know, it's just not worth it okay? This is my class" I pointed at the door "Bye."
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The cafeteria is a large white room, where we get the garbage they call food, and try to find our place in the school hierarchy of tables.
When I entered it I was pretty sure Alexis was staring at me.
Again I ignored her, got my meal, and sat with Nicholas and Thalia, they were already talking about this morning's incident.
"Someone should do something about it, she has been a bitch since forever because people let her." Thalia was really mad this time.
"People are scared of her, they won't do anything" Nic said after he chewed his french fries.
"I'm not scared, I need a plan."
"It has to be a great plan because unfortunately she's smart. And a smart bitch is always worse than a dumb one." Nic said.
"Calm down" I laughed "You two are sounding really crazy."
"We can start a revolution." Thalia said, her eyes getting really wild.
Now she was hallucinating.
"So Nic, any information about your trip besides 'there were lots of hot girls'?" I asked mocking him.
"Not really, I went there to get away from my mom" Witch is a drunk idiot. "I didn't have much money because I had to pay for the hotel, so I basically walked around and crashed into clubs." He laughed.
"You're a mess." I told him also laughing.
"At least you're summer was better then mine, did Winter tell you I got arrested?" Thalia said.
Nic didn't seem surprised.
"What did you do this time?"
"Well, my foster parents wouldn't give me money so I stole a beer from the supermarket, spent summer in *PRISÃO PRA MENORES* and had to switch foster parents again."
"The strangest thing is I'm not even surprised, so are your new foster parents cool?"
"Kind of, they just watch TV the hole day so I can do whatever I want" She drank the last sip of coke that I'm pretty sure she had mixed it up with vodka.
"Congrats." He laughed. I laughed. Thalia laughed. And suddenly we were all laughing of her disastrous summer.
I looked at the table next to us and saw a girl with messy blonde hair, she turned around and I recognised Cassidy Walker, Thomas's sister, the girl everyone called crazy.
"Can I call Cassidy to sit with us? She seems lonely."
"I don't know, it creeps me out when she talks to herself." Nic said. "One time I'm pretty sure she had an imaginary friend."
"I like her, people say she tried to kill herself, that is bold." Thalia told me.
I stared at her, she didn't seem so bad.
"Hey, Cassie" She turned around again, her brown eyes looking right through me."Don't you want to sit with us?"
She half smiled
"Sure."
She got up and sat next to me.
An awkward silence filled the table.
"So, how are you going?" Nic tried to break the ice.
"Utterly wonderful, thank you for asking." She suddenly got up, getting closer to Nic's face "You have really beautiful eyes."
Nic pushed her back gently.
"Hum, thanks."
I like Cassie. She laughs for no reason, suddenly cries over nothing, has angry attacks when everyone around her is quiet, and it's cool to watch how her eye balls just won't stop moving.
"So how is trying suicide?"
Just remembering Thalia has absolutely no control on what she says.
"Thalia, what the hell?" I said
She just looked at me like she didn't do anything wrong.
Luckily, Cassie just laughed faintly.
"It's not as cool as it looks."She stopped for while and suddenly screamed."Do you guys think there's ice cream for dessert?"
"We don't have dessert here..." Nic said calmly "Remember?"
"Oh, right, that's bloody sad, we should do something about it."
"Yes, we should."
The awkward silence took care of the table again.
"So...I'm done eating, I have history now, witch is kind of far so I better get going." I said.
"I have history now too, we can go together" Cassie said smiling.
"Oh, that should be fun, bye guys"
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Cassidy and I entered the class room when nobody else had arrived. The only person there was Mr.Pintch, our old and boring history teacher.
"You are a little early" He said "But that's okay, sit down please."
Cassie ran to sit on one of the chairs, skipping just like a child, and I sat in front of her.
We spent a minute in silence, the only thing I could hear was Cassie whispering the song "Wild World", when the bell finally rang.
Tons of students entered the class, but when Alexis and her friends did I realised how much I wanted to punch them.
"Good afternoon students, my name is Mr.Pintch, your history teacher.You can start reading pages 1 to 20 and then resume it in your notebooks."
History could be really interesting but Mr. Pintch made everything boring.
I started my reading, the class was in total silence, the only noise was the breathing of the students. And suddenly a terrifying scream filled the class room.
"THEY'RE HERE AGAIN. TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME. THEY'RE GOING TO HURT ME, TAKE THEM AWAY. SOMEBODY HELP PLEASE."
I turned around and Cassie got up crying and ran out of the room. Everybody was in silence for a moment.
"What are you waiting for? Continue your reading." Mr. Pinch said to us.
I almost screamed at him but instead I asked if I could use the bathroom. He gave me the pass and I went out looking for Cassidy.
I followed the sobbing noises into the janitor's room and found Cassie hugging her own knees and getting her legs wet with tears.
"Cassie...Can you tell me what happened?"
She contained a hick up and looked at me, her eyes widen.
"I don't think you would understand, and I also don't think you could do anything to help me, so can you please just leave me bloody alone?"
"Try me." I said sitting right between Cassie and a mob.
"I can't, you would just call me crazy like everyone else."
"No, I won't, I'm different, please tell me what's going on so I can help you."
She was looking vaguely to her front, like she'd just seen an inoffensive ghost.
"I'm so bloody scared" She suddenly said, turning to me. "They're bigger and they're everywhere. I'm afraid they'll hurt me."
"Who are you talking about?"
"The bloody creatures." She laughed in a crazy way "I don't know they're names."
"Creatures?"
"Whatever you prefer to call them, creatures, monsters, beasts, it makes no difference."
"Cassie there was nothing in that class room."
She looked right through me, like she was staring at something behind the wall.
"Just because you didn't see it." She said "Doesn't mean they weren't there."
"But nobody else saw it Cassie."
"Yes, that's the bloody point Winter, I'm special, I am the only one who can see them."
I really wanted to believe her, because I told her I would, but the more she talked, more I knew she was schizophrenic or something alike.
"Have you talked to anyone about this?"
"Yes, that's why they give me pills that I pretend to take, that's why I have to go to that bloody stupid therapist that won't believe me, that's why my parents think I'm a bloody lunatic, AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHY I WANT TO DIE."
She started crying louder and hitting stuff with her feet, I was in shock so I didn't do anything.
"Cassie." I tried to talk as calm as I could "I think you should try to take your pills, maybe you'll stop seeing this monsters."
She laughed without any humor.
"Just because I won't see them anymore, doesn't mean they won't be there, you can't pretend your problems don't exist Winter, because they do. They bloody do."
"Cassie...I..." I was stuck, I didn't know what to tell her.
"I know you think I'm bloody crazy now, but I don't care, so can you please leave me alone now?"
"Yeah, I can, I'm sorry I couldn't help you Cass."
"No problem" She mumbled, tears rolling down her face. "No problem"
I walked out of the janitor's room, a billion thoughts filling my mind.
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The belt rang and I could finally go home, but first I had to talk about what happened with Thalia and Nicholas. And I knew where I could find them.
In our school there's this place right after the parking lot that I don't think anyone except me, Thalia, Nic and the person who built it of course, know about. It's hidden by some trees so everybody else thinks behind them there're just more trees but actually there's a *CLAREIRA* where there's a small lake and a picnic table where we like to hang out because it's quiet and we can say and do whatever we want.
One day after school, Thalia was really drunk and she needed somewhere to puke, so I thought behind those trees would be a perfect place, and that's how we found it.
Basically everyday after school we sit and talk there, sometimes for hours, so I knew they would be there.
"Hey Win, how was class with the crazy girl?" Thalia asked, she had already lit up a cigaret and it was stuck between her teeth.
"Yeah, we're bored, just tell us she freaked out so we can have something to talk about please." Nicholas said joking.
They were both sitting on the ground so I sat there too.
"That was actually what I wanted to talk about." I then told them everything that happened.
"I knew she was completely crazy" Nic said
"You don't know Nic, maybe she's the reasonable one and we're all crazy" Thalia said.
They always disagree.
"Oh yeah, that's probable."
"It is okay? You can't really know if she's crazy or she's just seeing what we can't."
"I guess we'll never know."
"Do you think I should tell someone that she's not taking her pills?" I asked.
"No." Thalia said.
"Yes." Nic said.
"This isn't helping." I was really worried about Cassie. "I'm going home, I need to think."
"Just leave her alone, it's her decision if she wants to be crazy or not." Thalia screamed while I walked away.
"You need to tell someone so she can feel normal" Nic screamed.
I just entered my *{insert car's name}* and drove home.
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I live in a tiny apartment 15 minutes away from school with my mom. We used to live in a house but there were to many memories of my sister there so when she was missing for six months we decided to move.
My mom always complains about the space but I like it because I can be alone in my bedroom all day long without anyone complaining about it.
"Hey mom, I'm home." I yelled locking the door.
"Hey sweetie, are you okay? Lunch we'll be ready soon." My mom, Vivian, answered coming in my direction.
"I'm fine, as always."
She held my hand looking worried.
"Did you drive safely? You seem kind of dizzy. Oh my God have you been drinking?"
"Mom, I told you, I'm fine."
She still looked worried.
"Okay, take of your dirty shoes, I just washed the floor." She said "I know you don't like it when I'm over protective but your father left us years ago and now with Ariana gone it's just you and me."
"I know mom, is really hard, I don't judge you."
I took of my shoes and marched to my room. My mom has always been a little over protective but since my sister went missing she has been out of control, aside from the worrying she's also a compulsive cleaner.
My room has blue walls, a big bed, a table for me to do my homework, a white closet and tons of shelves filled with my favourite books.
I dropped my backpack on the floor next to my bed and went straight to the bathroom attached to my room, I needed to wash my hands, my mom has kind of a sixth sense for noticing unwashed hands.
The bathroom smelled like lavender, it must have been recently cleaned. I took of my black glasses and looked into the mirror.
I still had deep *OLHEIRAS* from the sleepless nights, rouding my light blue eyes that are so huge I find them to big for my face. The blue contrasts on my extremely pale skin and my hair that is so blonde it's almost white.
My parents were unfortunately right for giving me this name. I'm winter in person.
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